The past few weeks have been wonderful, but a bit rough. Starting a new job, writing two massive exams with deadlines the same day, getting my head around all the new projects I’m starting come June and being on a no-added-sugar-(AT ALL)-month has taken all my focus away from this wonderful little thing I’m doing: Morning Projects. With a calendar filled with work, exams and meetings, I have not felt inspired to share that much with you. Mostly in fear of the fact that it would all be about food, yoga and running, because that has in fact been all my days have been filled with besides sleeping, studying and working.
Last week, I went to this workshop about how to handle exam anxiety and went home with a head filled with wonderful new ways of thinking, and a body that felt a lot lighter than before. One of the things the psychologist talked about was how it is important to have a constantly changing expectation of our performances, and have our goals set just a little higher that our actual achievement level to keep us inspired. This will ultimately make us perform better, and feel a lot calmer about the whole thing. I have applied that to how I I work with the huge exam papers that are hanging over me, and today I realised that I need to treat Morning Projects the same way.
I have not been posting because I haven’t adjusted my expectations according to everything else that is going on in my life, so in fear of not living up to my own expectations of what it should be I just haven’t posted anything. This happens in spite of having lots of things that I want to share. I get this mental block, just like when I’m working on big exam papers. It takes a lot to realise it, but it is easy to fix and this post is the first step. I’m going to start living by this rule, to have an always-changing expectation to my performances because it makes my head and heart feel calm, and at ease. Running and Ashtanga gets rid of the stress that gathers in my body. I want to choose being a bit happier over having the control I feel like I need.
On the 2nd of June I will be done with my exams, and start a month of photo indulgence and exiting new projects. Until then, there will be a guilt free treat-recipe and a summer picture post up on the blog. Enjoy your Sunday!